There is a little fizzing in my stomach as I write: a gentle mixture of anxiety and excitement. Last night I made a slightly scary decision, and here I am telling you about it.
First, right here. The boiler is greeting the morning with its low drone. Ralph dog has just made some snuffly settling-down noises and is curled quietly in his bed. When I glance outside the big sun blinds me. Frost has kissed the vegetable patch. The mist is burning away.
It’s a magic I’ve been practising for decades. Last night I read in an old journal that writing was my ‘sacred work’. It is good to remember this. I love to translate the mess of life into text. I love to examine myself and to pay attention to everything. I love to share the little brightnesses I glean with others.
My decision is that I will value this part of my sacred work, and make a proper place for it in my life. I charge £55 for fifty minutes of psychotherapy - this allows me to pay the bills and purchase expensive chocolates. It’s time for me to value my writing in the same way.
So here are your three choices.
1) Do nothing, and receive one ‘Going Gently’ reflection a month.
2) Click on the special offer button below, become a subscriber and honour my writing (and honour your time as you read and are nourished). Receive weekly reflections, voicenotes & a monthly question for less than £1 a week.
3) Send me a message if you would like to be a subscriber but don’t have the money right now and I’ll sign you up for free, no questions asked.
Why the fizz of anxiety? Because I have parts that believe I should give my writing (and everything) away for free or I’m not a nice person. Because I would like to write for more than eight people and that’s how many paid subscribers I have so far. Because doing something new is always a teensy bit scary.
It feels good too. It feels like this in my gut: a quiet ‘yes.’
Go gently,
Satya _/|\_
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What decisions might be percolating inside you? What parts of you have concerns about the possible outcome of these decisions? Can you listen to these parts of you and reassure them? Can you trust that your decision will emerge in its own time?
This feels good, to have connection and for it to be honoured and valued.