Definitely hit the emotional rollercoaster of healing after the operation last week. Today I have realised so much of me has been hiding away due to stress and anxiety. Reading this not only brings my joy for you and the bunnies, but for my inner child that still believes she has to be or do or exist in a certain way in order to be loved. Perfect reminder that just existing is reason enough. We all suffer, we all have a pure Buddha nature and we includes me.
I am reading this and I am crying. Which isn't my sort of thing, tbh. It used to be. Anyway, I don't think I've been feeling unworthy of love, at least not on the surface. But I have been feeling very unloved. Not alone, I'm enmeshed in relationships. But not loved - or at least not in ways that I can feel. Anyway, I will try to focus on how I can love and be okay with me. I will love myself the way I want to be loved.
It sounds like some parts of you heard something important and responded to it... I don't know how it is for you, but I definitely have lots of parts that feel worthy of love, and a few hidden away that aren't so sure. Sorry to hear about the poverty of love in your life right now. I hope you can find some of that - as you say - from the infinite compassion inside you and outside you in the form of nature, animals, strangers etc... sending blessings from here.
I’m sitting with a much younger, very sad part these days. She was never allowed to be upset and I’m trying so hard to extend as much love and care to her as I can now. This was a beautiful post and I’m interested to learn more about Nembutsu. Thank you
I hear you Lindsey - so glad you can offer attention that young part. And there's a free month-long course on nembutsu on our temple site - www.brightearth.org - do let me know if you have any questions! 🙏🏻
I realized a few weeks ago that I approach my self growth as a hustle for worth and loveability, and it really messed with me for a few days. I guess I've really struggled with holding two truths: I may hurt and disappoint others AND I can still be loveable.
This feels like a boost of support to offer my truth to some people I love, even if I'm worried about how they'll receive it. My voice matters.
Thanks for sharing Aleesha. It is hard to hold those two truths at once, especially as sometimes it IS too much for folk when we disappoint others (which is understandable - it often is for us too!). Glad the piece was helpful and great to have you here.
Thank you Satya you leave us much to think about. I speak about Al Anon a lot because for me personally they gave me a deeper understanding that you can extend - if not love - at least good wishes towards those who failed themselves and others. It frees you to love those who have inner demons well above our pay grade to heal.
As to animals I think they offer unconditional acceptance and love that changes us for the better and stays with us forever. 🙏❤️
Yes, we can learn so much from the unconditional acceptance of animals. I never manage it the other way round, but it's something to aspire to! Lovely to have you here as ALWAYS.
Oh Satya, what a beautiful reminder that we do not need to prove ourselves, we are enough as we are 💚
I’m working with my inner teen just now, healing so much conditioning about what I needed to DO to be loved, get attention etc. Your message is just perfect.
Tell me: What helps you to remember your inherent loveability? What gets in the way? What messages were you given that have solidified into unhelpful beliefs? What might you do today or this week to offer yourself some care and attention?
Definitely hit the emotional rollercoaster of healing after the operation last week. Today I have realised so much of me has been hiding away due to stress and anxiety. Reading this not only brings my joy for you and the bunnies, but for my inner child that still believes she has to be or do or exist in a certain way in order to be loved. Perfect reminder that just existing is reason enough. We all suffer, we all have a pure Buddha nature and we includes me.
Wishing you gentleness - rest up!
I am reading this and I am crying. Which isn't my sort of thing, tbh. It used to be. Anyway, I don't think I've been feeling unworthy of love, at least not on the surface. But I have been feeling very unloved. Not alone, I'm enmeshed in relationships. But not loved - or at least not in ways that I can feel. Anyway, I will try to focus on how I can love and be okay with me. I will love myself the way I want to be loved.
It sounds like some parts of you heard something important and responded to it... I don't know how it is for you, but I definitely have lots of parts that feel worthy of love, and a few hidden away that aren't so sure. Sorry to hear about the poverty of love in your life right now. I hope you can find some of that - as you say - from the infinite compassion inside you and outside you in the form of nature, animals, strangers etc... sending blessings from here.
I’m sitting with a much younger, very sad part these days. She was never allowed to be upset and I’m trying so hard to extend as much love and care to her as I can now. This was a beautiful post and I’m interested to learn more about Nembutsu. Thank you
I hear you Lindsey - so glad you can offer attention that young part. And there's a free month-long course on nembutsu on our temple site - www.brightearth.org - do let me know if you have any questions! 🙏🏻
Thank you!
Thank you ❤️❤️
I realized a few weeks ago that I approach my self growth as a hustle for worth and loveability, and it really messed with me for a few days. I guess I've really struggled with holding two truths: I may hurt and disappoint others AND I can still be loveable.
This feels like a boost of support to offer my truth to some people I love, even if I'm worried about how they'll receive it. My voice matters.
Oof. "I approach my self growth as a hustle for worth and loveability." I feel like I need to sit down. 🤣
Right?!? It’s brutal
Thanks for sharing Aleesha. It is hard to hold those two truths at once, especially as sometimes it IS too much for folk when we disappoint others (which is understandable - it often is for us too!). Glad the piece was helpful and great to have you here.
Such helpful sharing, Satya. I have passed this on to someone I know who really, really needed to hear this today. Thank you.
I am so glad. I wish them well x
Thank you Satya you leave us much to think about. I speak about Al Anon a lot because for me personally they gave me a deeper understanding that you can extend - if not love - at least good wishes towards those who failed themselves and others. It frees you to love those who have inner demons well above our pay grade to heal.
As to animals I think they offer unconditional acceptance and love that changes us for the better and stays with us forever. 🙏❤️
Yes, we can learn so much from the unconditional acceptance of animals. I never manage it the other way round, but it's something to aspire to! Lovely to have you here as ALWAYS.
Satya,
Thank you for taking such time and care to answer my question. I need time to think about what you wrote and then I shall give you a proper response.
Ruth
Look forward to any Qs/comments!
Oh Satya, what a beautiful reminder that we do not need to prove ourselves, we are enough as we are 💚
I’m working with my inner teen just now, healing so much conditioning about what I needed to DO to be loved, get attention etc. Your message is just perfect.
I am glad Sarah, and so happy your teen is getting some love! 🙏🏻💚
Tell me: What helps you to remember your inherent loveability? What gets in the way? What messages were you given that have solidified into unhelpful beliefs? What might you do today or this week to offer yourself some care and attention?