Satya, this is so close to my experience; until just a few weeks ago, I had this constant and overarcing fantasy about living in an old style caravan, like the one my Nan lived in for many years, even on the same park in Essex. Something must have triggered an awakening because I realised that this fantasy was stealing all the joy I should be experiencing in this, my probable forever home, especially as it's unlikely I will ever live in the UK again. It sounds a bit daft, but I celebrated letting go of this future/past by treating myself to two quite expensive hand embroidered cushion covers to brighten up my hall here. First steps to investing big love in my here and now.
This definitely resonates with me and my 99 hour a week schedule, I just can't seem to shift. I am open to learning how, if I don't, it's not looking good for me. The life of a carer is often fraught with the lack of control that systems (or lack thereof) pose on us and this can lead to us feeling we have no other recourse but to fail. I am working on stepping back and looking at where our needs fit into this picture and how to find alternative ways, sometimes completely bypassing the system all together.
Just echoes my thoughts at the moment but put into words like yours brings it to the fore. Seeking refuge in the future is something we all do but I will try and train myself to live in the "now". Thank you for your insight once again.
Satya, this is so close to my experience; until just a few weeks ago, I had this constant and overarcing fantasy about living in an old style caravan, like the one my Nan lived in for many years, even on the same park in Essex. Something must have triggered an awakening because I realised that this fantasy was stealing all the joy I should be experiencing in this, my probable forever home, especially as it's unlikely I will ever live in the UK again. It sounds a bit daft, but I celebrated letting go of this future/past by treating myself to two quite expensive hand embroidered cushion covers to brighten up my hall here. First steps to investing big love in my here and now.
This definitely resonates with me and my 99 hour a week schedule, I just can't seem to shift. I am open to learning how, if I don't, it's not looking good for me. The life of a carer is often fraught with the lack of control that systems (or lack thereof) pose on us and this can lead to us feeling we have no other recourse but to fail. I am working on stepping back and looking at where our needs fit into this picture and how to find alternative ways, sometimes completely bypassing the system all together.
Just echoes my thoughts at the moment but put into words like yours brings it to the fore. Seeking refuge in the future is something we all do but I will try and train myself to live in the "now". Thank you for your insight once again.
Martyn.