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Caroline Howlett's avatar

My unwanted family member, MS, rules the roost in my home. I liked to think that I was, but I get reminders, just as I think things are going well, that I’m getting just a bit ‘too big for my boots’. I have just had a birthday weekend, with attendant ‘festivities’ which would be considered low key on most peoples’ radars. Spread out over a few days so as to keep the evil Fatigue part of its character at bay. A brunch out with a girlfriend; a longer day out with swanky lunch with my partner; an hour at the pub on Sunday with a few village friends. Alcohol at a minimum & timings balanced with rests. I have one more lunch outing planned this week with 2 girlfriends. But Fatigue has crept out from under the bedcovers and is saying ‘I don’t think so’. The all too familiar leaden feeling is seeping through my body, telling me to ‘hold my horses’.

I’ll have to listen or it’ll make it worse. Especially when it employs another unpopular family member, Anxiety. I have important things to do next week that I really can’t cancel & it knows that. I can hear it laughing as I type.

My strategy for fighting them off, whenever they come knocking, employs many of your proposals. I generally win half the time & am grateful for that. I am very lucky to have the invites at all. These fights apply to everyday life, as well as the high days and holidays

And knowing that at least half of my ‘attackers’ are self-generated makes my battling so so tiresome.

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Gemma's avatar

I sign up for all sorts of training, both at work and in my own time. Sometimes I have the courage to stop attending, other times I feel like I’ll be missing out on “the answer” I’ve been looking for, or some secret that only I don’t know.

I love the idea of noticing when we’re trying to educate ourselves out of vulnerability. You put it so perfectly. I get this grasping feeling inside me, where I feel like I’m grabbing at anything which might help, but actually I already have the answers.

The trouble is, I don’t necessarily like the answers because they involve patience and going deeper (rather than wider).

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